It’s such a relief to be back on this blog and to be working on this project. So where have I been since midway through last April? Many of my excuses are: life! I love my job and it keeps me busy. There are all the other regular things as well to keep me running….
Category: caretaking
Lost Communication
The anniversary is approaching and I am feeling a bit raw. I’m surprised at this. I keep reminding myself of the full life she lead, of how it was her time to go and of how it’s ok to feel sorrow but I can focus on those good, sweet memories as well. But I just…
Thankful to Be Back, and for Other Things
Hello. I have been away for so long. An explanation, really just a list of excuses, is forthcoming. The important part: I want back in! Of course, I don’t know if I can keep my word and keep posting on a regular basis. But I want back in!!! I decided to post a quick piece…
April A-Z: Divvying and Dreaming
This past March was tense and difficult. The 11th was Babu’s birthday but instead of her, we had a job. Adam’s uncle, Tony, came from Tennessee and helped to start the process of doling out things that were hers and now theirs. You can imagine how that can go. At some point one night during…
Babu: 1918-2018
It is with an extremely heavy heart that I post this update. In fact, I’ve been avoiding it for two and a half weeks. We have lost Babu. She was a hundred and a half and she went peacefully and quickly. It’s been a hard holiday and long December. I’m in the process of healing…
Woodpeckers and Ancestors in the Garden
The last time I posted about my garden was here: April A-Z: Garden This isn’t a garden blog but talk of the garden fits here. Some times when I feel like I could float away in all the fears and negativity that can surround any person who is a caretaker, this garden anchors me. Not…
The Past and Present
I took a dare I made with myself yesterday and I shared a passage with Babu. The dare was to give it one more try, see if it is as bad as I think it is every time. I started with asking her if she remembered writing in a diary every day and she absolutely…
Our Fourth Comes Early
It’s that time of year again: summer and Independence Day! The Chicopee fireworks are always one of the first scheduled in our area. June usually has not even ended yet before we get ready for the light show. And we are the luckiest ducks. Yes, that is my beautiful sister and my beyond cute niece…
Trends
What is with my obsession with finding patterns? I know life is more likely just chaos and random occurrences. Even still, here are some trends I’ve seen transcribing 1940: I found an interesting pattern with the Nee-Wahs: Tuesday, February 13th, 1940 I wondered tonight if the Nee-Wahs were going to break up. We discussed the…
Throw Back Thursday: The First Post
I have started to comb through the blog, fine tooth style. I plan to archive the archive. I may tweak some things, delete some posts, fix some typos. I’m going through it all, rehashing it, if you will. I’m mining more sense out of this, finding more meaning, identifying more patterns. Perhaps…finding a way to…
A Day in the Life, 2018 and Another Month in 1940: Part Seven
I believe that as a caretaker, there is always room for self doubt. For guilt and being hard on yourself. Sometimes I have to reverse my thinking. I sat with my grandmother tonight during what has become my favorite part of the day, night time pill time. I quickly give her her pills then turn…
A Day in the Life, 2018, and Another Month from 1940: Part Six
Now, night time is when the fun begins. Adam is usually home around five and we spend as much time as we can in the garage. For him, it is his home away from home and for me, it’s the place right next to my garden, and him. Sometimes the house gets oppressive. Sometimes we…
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