Help! Can you suggest song titles?

Hello everyone.  Some of you know this already, but Babu is turning 100 in March!  We, of course, are having a whopping party and I am going to make a video slide for the special event.  When I make videos like this I like to choose three songs and that’s where I need your help. …

Just Tonight

At the end of this long week I got home and was tired.  I could have called it bedtime, except for dinner being in a half an hour.  By “dinner” I mean making Babu her dinner, and then all the steps to take care of her until she goes to bed around 11.  Husband is…

The Mystery of the Hidden Teeth

Two days ago I get up to get Babu’s breakfast ready and I notice something is off.  Her teeth are not in her overnight container.  This could be bad.  One of two things happens when the teeth are not where they are supposed to be: 1.  She slept with them in.  This is rare because…

Memory, Records, and Truth

I just read a wonderful post that explains why I fall so easily into the cliche of being more reflective this time of year. In this post The Beauty Along the Road writes: Liminal Space Posted on December 23, 2017 by Beauty Along the Road One of my favorite things to do in the liminal…

All The Best Intentions…

For the last two days I have been working on a post that seems too big for one post and too big for only two or three days worth of processing and reflecting.  It is about, well, mostly about, or maybe only a little bit about, “Jakey.”   I have been processing something about “Jakey”…

Happy Holidays! (I’m Trying.)

Wow.  I have been away from this blog for so very long.  It’s true.  It’s also true that I think about this blog every day.  But, eh, life.  I have to admit, I was nervous to start typing and posting again.  But, as it usually happens, once I began, it all melted away. Babu, myself,…

The Case of Patches and Miley

I began a post today, a post I’ve been writing for the last hour, that intended to make the world understand the absolute insanity I put up with.  It also attempted to purge and cathart, something I still drastically need.  But trash talking members of this family is something I have promised myself I wouldn’t…

The Reluctant Gatekeeper

In a way, I have become the gatekeeper of Babu’s memories.  I don’t relish the responsibility.  On her own, her memories both have abandoned her and hold her hostage.  There is a lot she can no longer remember and even less she talks about and focuses on.  Some things she obsesses about.  One thing in…

Yes, Harper, It Is Real.

There is a moment I want to write about for one reason and one reason only.  I want to preserve it. My sister, Nicole, now comes over with her babies once a week to visit Babu.  Jade is now almost 6 and Harper is now almost 3.  (GAWD LORT IN HEAVEN!  How did that happen?)…

A Note on Caretaking

With my husband working non-stop and traveling, I’ve been holding down the fort by myself.  In truth Babu, Cort, and I have been holding down the fort.  It’s usually rare thing for him to travel, suddenly that’s all he’s doing. And I’ve been wracked with guilt.  I keep telling myself I’ll sit with her through…

Writing Wednesdays: All The Feels

Distractions!  Flowers and kittens and my dog and funny hats and clown noses.  Whatever it takes.  I’m not talking about distractions from my writing time, all I need is my phone for that.  I’m talking about distracting Babu from things that upset her.  This is more important than making her happy, it’s keeping her healthy. …

The Curious Case of Plants in the Nighttime

Sometimes Babu says something that makes me angry.  It’s not anger at her, it’s anger with myself.  It’s anger when I should have been there to help her and I wasn’t. This morning Babu wakes up, goes to the bathroom, comes out with a cheerful “dzien dobry!” and I get breakfast started as usual.  Then…