Hello. I have been away for so long. An explanation, really just a list of excuses, is forthcoming. The important part: I want back in! Of course, I don’t know if I can keep my word and keep posting on a regular basis. But I want back in!!!
I decided to post a quick piece today on Thanksgiving. More just to remind myself then anything else. It isn’t anything I haven’t said already but it always feels like I really thought it and appreciated it only if I write it. I’m thankful for the experience I got to have with Babu. Taking care of her changed my life and some of those changes weren’t good. It was complicated. But it more than balanced out for the better. One of the best parts of the experience was that both of us were old enough, she was and I was, to realize what I had was limited. Limited and special and that I better hold on to the moments. Now it is all said and done, and almost exactly a year has passed. Even calculating the loss we feel, the beauty outweighed it all.
She had a way of making small, everyday events special.
I am thankful that I got to be a partner in taking care of Babu. I am glad I got to see her reach 100 and be a part of my life. I’m glad I took care of her, listened to her, and got to know her.
As I have also said many times over, this project, her words, pictures, letters, keepsakes, are a blessing as well. I can’t really explain why I was able to stay away for this very long this time, but i miss it. I miss her words, the revelations and wit and laughter and emotions. It’s a wild ride and its far from over and I’m thankful for whatever time I get or I take to return and experience it.