All The Best Intentions…

For the last two days I have been working on a post that seems too big for one post and too big for only two or three days worth of processing and reflecting.  It is about, well, mostly about, or maybe only a little bit about, “Jakey.”   I have been processing something about “Jakey”…

Happy Holidays! (I’m Trying.)

Wow.  I have been away from this blog for so very long.  It’s true.  It’s also true that I think about this blog every day.  But, eh, life.  I have to admit, I was nervous to start typing and posting again.  But, as it usually happens, once I began, it all melted away. Babu, myself,…

Dog Days Mondays: Stella and Babu

One thing I can say about all of the dogs I’ve brought into this house, and that’s two adopted and two fosters, they have all been great around Babu.  I think they know: that is a nonnegotiable if there ever was one.  That’s good, because the major concern must be Babu’s safety and well being….

Dog Days Mondays

I began writing this post almost a month ago.  Since the prominent theme in my life lately is change, I left the post how it was when I started it.  It is updated at the bottom, so read to the end, a lot has changed! Dog Days Mondays might have to be a thing again!…

Sunday Share: The Difference a Month Can Make

Usually Sunday Share is about sharing other wonderful blogs out there.  However, this Sunday is about sharing about my life. It has been over a month since I have posted and I wanted my first new post – yesterday’s – to be about Babu and not me.  I wanted that because that’s what this blog…

The Case of Patches and Miley

I began a post today, a post I’ve been writing for the last hour, that intended to make the world understand the absolute insanity I put up with.  It also attempted to purge and cathart, something I still drastically need.  But trash talking members of this family is something I have promised myself I wouldn’t…

The Reluctant Gatekeeper

In a way, I have become the gatekeeper of Babu’s memories.  I don’t relish the responsibility.  On her own, her memories both have abandoned her and hold her hostage.  There is a lot she can no longer remember and even less she talks about and focuses on.  Some things she obsesses about.  One thing in…

Yes, Harper, It Is Real.

There is a moment I want to write about for one reason and one reason only.  I want to preserve it. My sister, Nicole, now comes over with her babies once a week to visit Babu.  Jade is now almost 6 and Harper is now almost 3.  (GAWD LORT IN HEAVEN!  How did that happen?)…

A Note on Caretaking

With my husband working non-stop and traveling, I’ve been holding down the fort by myself.  In truth Babu, Cort, and I have been holding down the fort.  It’s usually rare thing for him to travel, suddenly that’s all he’s doing. And I’ve been wracked with guilt.  I keep telling myself I’ll sit with her through…

Writing Wednesdays: All The Feels

Distractions!  Flowers and kittens and my dog and funny hats and clown noses.  Whatever it takes.  I’m not talking about distractions from my writing time, all I need is my phone for that.  I’m talking about distracting Babu from things that upset her.  This is more important than making her happy, it’s keeping her healthy. …

Sharing with Babu: That’s the kind of friends we were.

Sharing passages again with Babu seemed to be the cure to what ailed me, and her.  We read some of August twice now and we haven’t yet got through.  She reads on the computer with really big font and I sit with her and scroll through. Reading with her today was like being on the…